Fatherhood meant..
1. Eating at
Jollibee or McDonalds (used to, Cairo’s a big guy now) even if you crave for a
piping hot pizza or steak.
2. Eating his
leftover food even if it looks dirty and messy and tastes disgusting (re:baby
food).
3. Being overjoyed
upon seeing him smile his silly smile or learn something for the first time.
4. Letting go so
he could face the tough world outside of home not knowing what would happen.
5. Not minding
being the only ‘stage’ father in school and all the ‘where is his mom?’
questions.
6. Teaching him
the subject you hate the most, Math and pretending you’re good at it (Cairo:
Dad, you don’t have to pretend, I know).
7. Conceding to
buy some of the ‘luhos’ after hours of ‘no you can’t take that, you don’t need
it and no we don’t have enough money’ haggling (Cairo: who’s the boss?).
8. Being
‘superman’ every time, all the time. And yes, he is my kryptonite.
9. Having miles
and miles of patience and tonnes and tonnes of understanding (Cairo: do you
always have to exaggerate?).
10. Sacrificing
my happiness for his and breaking all the rules I've set with no regret at all.