While everybody else gave up already, I won't yet. Not this time, so hang in there my dear Lola. Selfish as it may seem but I'm not yet ready. I'm not yet ready for a big part of me will go with you. I will never be the same me, I will never be complete again. I will never ever be.
I know you will hold on to your promise. I know you will.
To God be the highest glory.